Where Are You?

... I am sinking

in the middle of my storm, where are you?

I hate pain and suffering, yet you plunge me deep into it

where is Your face?

where is Your hand?

why do Your acts have to be searched for?

or better still give me just a little reminder that You are here

why does Your presence seem to shrink in our pains?

shouldn't it be more then? do You not scream to us in our pain, or are we deaf?

I want to see Your hand, more clearly than I see mine...

This I said until it clicked that — God is not alien to our pain or suffering. The word states that we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with us essentially, He understands what it means to be human as Hebrews 4:15a TPT translation put it. I will be honest however, that it is hard for me to see Him or even to look for Him currently. But He is here! even more than ever.

He is my Father and He feels strongly for me than I do for myself. Although it's hard to imagine it remains the truth even if I do not see it; obviously, pain makes no sense when you're in the heat of it. I hate it, and it hurts so bad. But we ask for strength to endure init? Right!

I'm sorry that I am taking you on a walk through my pain ridden mind bear with me.

So maybe you're where I am currently, remember He is with you and He is not absent in your pain. He is closer than you can ever imagine (I'm also telling this to myself) 

Hey, let me recommend a playlist for you so whenever you forget like I often do, you have a couple of symphonies that you could use to waltz melodically into His arms (give them a chance, okay?🙃) Ever Present Playlist! (just tap the link)