Is 'nostalgia' a befitting title?

I'm hurt
I'm so hurt

I was viewing WhatsApp statuses and I stumbled upon a name that reminded me of a song I would always listen to when I got saved
it was my dear dear friend who sent me the song and I love you so much Hidelsie.

I went to search for the song on Spotify and surely enough, I found it, put it on repeat and nostalgia hit, slapped, and demolished me. I miss Him, oh God miss Him (funny how the 'Him' is God but I still said 'oh God') ps. you better laugh😑

I miss when we first met when it was easy to be vulnerable in His arms, when it was always like He was right beside me, like He was always there. I'm tired of chasing, I just want to drink and swim in His waters again.

Dare I say miss the pain that bonded us and knitted us closely together 
maybe it is just nostalgia but, take me back...  back to when I was sad and hurt and broken and confused, when I spent hours taking strolls and talking to Him out loud and I could see the look on people's faces on the road like they thought I was insane (and we would always laugh together). All of this I want just so I can see Him in that light again. 

Things made more sense when I was confused and He was in it. Now it seems I'd have to call a million times before I see Him. This is one of those rare moments where I am teary-eyed. I miss my best friend, my Dad.

Take me back I'm very drained