My semester with God 3

I wrote this four days ago, pardon my tenses please🤲🏾

It's two weeks and some days to my exams and warfare has been 'warfar-ing'. It's been extremely hard to read my books. Anytime I sit down to read, there will be an overwhelming amount of stress on my head and when I stop reading, it'll just go.

I knew there was a problem, but I couldn't do anything because I was already accepting it and felt like I was at the mercy of whatever was going on. 

Yesternight I was beating myself up about not reading and I felt really defeated. I distracted myself with TikToks so I wouldn't think about it.

I got to school today and my friend said to me 'this one, you're not even taking school serious again'. I was just looking at her and saying in my head 'this one doesn't even understand what is doing me sha' 

Either ways, what she said got to me. I knew I had been very nonchalant and passive towards school, I couldn't even read, it was always a war when I tried.

Feeling down, I texted my Spiritual partner and told her about what was going on and she said:

'If you really want this semester to be good for you, it starts from you. The spiritual controls the physical right? There’s what we can desperate prayer, where you cry to God over a particular situation or issue, in your case let’s say school and reading, it’s only when you take it to God in prayer, my dad will say wage war against your flesh. It’s only then will things be put right. 

Don’t just say “God will run it” be angry enough in your spirit to make it happen! Might be a stronghold you have over reading, you won’t know. 

“For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.”

Ephesians 6:12 NLT

It’s unseen but you know it’s a battle you need to win, fight Ebube, that’s the only way you will break out of it. God is with you.'

I realized then and there I had to take the bull by its horns and not sit like a docile house cat. The fierceness in my spirit got stirred up more when I was telling a friend of mine I had not read and he said 'na you now, God go run am for you', you wey get God'  (it's you now, God will do it for you, you that's God's friend) this statement shows our lives as Christians is being monitored by the world.

I was like naa, I can't put my Father's name to shame and He won't let it happen either!

I needed to stirr up my spirit because it was downnn so I began to pray. I didn't want to take any chances because I knew the devil knew what was going to happen and I wasn't going to wait for him to make another move; I told my friend to carry my bag so I could freely move my body, and I began to pray in my mind and my spirit. Suddenly, I was called to come home 'an emergency' so I rushed and it turned out to be a false alarm. I knew Pop's wanted me home because I would have stayed in school for long and would've missed out on what was going to happen. 

When I got home, I was contemplating going back to school for flimsy reasons but wisdom and lack of transport wouldn't allow me, so I stayed. I had a battle to win anyways.

I proceeded to have my bath, clean my room, put on a song of victory because I knew I had already won, I was just going to get my trophy. I played two songs; 'Ive got the victory' by Ricky Dillard & New G and 'kai ka ci nasara' by Pastor Chingtok Ishaku (his rendition); there's a part of this song that touched my soul.

Ka taka kan shaidan (you've trampled on satan)

Ni ma zan taka kan shaidan (I'll trample on satan too)

It was and still is very empowering to know I can trample on Satan because Jesus has!😤

After this, I listened to, and sang more songs; worshipped God and prayed: then I went to read; and it was amazing. I didn't feel the stress, I understood, I remembered.

Then I asked God for strength to say no to my flesh that always wants to rest and press phone.

I decided to write this so the name of the Lord will be glorified through and in my life.

The text my spiritual partner sent though😭. She said 'dont just say God will run it' be angry enough in your spirit to make it happen. The battle has been won yes, I was ignorant of my victory and lived like I had been defeated.

I knew there was a stronghold over me reading. It felt like weight was placed on my mental each time I sat to read, and well now, I've got the victory. I believe that God was is and always will be with me. I'll continue reading for my exams and I know my results will be good because of Him.

Praise the Lord!!!!!🤲🏾😭

I've got the victory😌🥳